Seeing the Barriers is Only Half the Battle

3 Months of coffee and questions with people:

Many of the barriers, that I've always felt come from being an introvert, feel like they are falling away. I say barriers because thats what they feel like, like this wall that makes me feel like its physically impossible to walk up and talk to a stranger. These barriers that wont let me show too much of myself to the world. The barrier that makes me want to apologize for being too passionate about something, or too weird or too compassionate, or too observant. They are all falling away. I feel like I can do anything, and I don’t feel that constant concern of what other people might think. I feel absolutely unapologetic for my actions, wants and desires. This coming from someone who has spent their whole life worrying about inconvenience to the people around me, this is huge.

So what brought this on? I’m not sure. Maybe it was just getting tired of all the energy I was using up worrying about other people and things that don’t matter. Maybe it was sitting at a “career day” with a bunch of professionals and learning that I don’t have to please, get along, or even agree with everyone. I’m completely allowed to ignore someone’s advice if it doesn’t line up with who I am and who I want to be. I see that I actually have a lot of connections and I have a lot more confidence in what I want to do and who I am. And there are people out there who already agree with my beliefs and philosophies on life and design. I don’t have to reinvent the wheel I just have to align myself with the people who are already doing it.

I’m also tired of making excuses and I’ve been doing that a lot lately. I’m going to start being the person I want to be, no excuses about time or resources, things not falling into place. Its time for me to make my own changes.

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